Monday Monday

Well its the start of another week.  For a Monday it was pretty good.  Im adjusting to the new Project that I have been assigned to.  Curious to see where it takes me.  Hit the gym toady after work.  I did 1 hour on the treadmill, burnt 567 calories.   Did very well with the calories today.  Ill be glad when i get to the point when i fill better after a workout.  Right now Im dying.  Im exhausted, my body is revolting and trying to convince me to stop.  Taking one step at a time

The Workout begins

Ouch Ouch Ouch.  Re joined the Gym last week.  Jr and I joined the Kroc center.  OMG the first day I almost quit.  I was so out of shape it was unreal.  Okay so when i quit going i could easily do 1 hour of Cardio with no  problem.  My first day back i could bare do 10 minutes.  Jesus.  I had such spaghetti legs I could barely walk down the stairs to get back to the locker room.  LOL What have i done.  Hope to God it gets easier.  I have lost a few pounds since my last entry.  Blood Sugars are still an issue not sure what is going on there.  Any suggestions would be helpful.  Any suggestions for workout and lots and lots of words of encouragement are needed and appreciated.

The Stakes are Higher

Well here it is and a month past my last Dr. appointment.  Where do I stand you may ask?  Well I am moving in the right direction however i still have a ways to go until i even get to where i need to be operating on a daily basis.  I still struggle with finding a way that i can stick to for recording my food, exercise, glucose and blood pressure not only should it be user friendly however it would need to be transferable to my physician.   The latest is Track3  its on my IPAD so i can have it with me all the time.  I am experimenting with it.  My plan is to write information down during the day and as i eat and workout and then at 9 p.m. every evening, transfer to the computer.  I've got two months to go to lose some weight, and get my average glucose down.  People have said that quitting smoking was the hardest thing they have ever done.  Well I'm here to tell you  "Hell No"  I quit 7 years ago and it was the easiest thing I have ever done.  There was only one thing in my life that was harder for me that being diabetic, and changing my eating habits.   It was when I got divorced and moved away from my 4 girls, and let  me tell you I have been through some tough things in my 49 years.  Several years ago I was diagnosed with severe clinical depression, now its not as bad as it sounds as long as i stay on my medication, however it does complicate  my eating problem.  You see when i cycle i eat and i don't care what i eat or how much.  It seems that the eating makes me feel better for awhile.  I just don't have the control that I need during those times.  Luckily they don't happen as often as they used to.  Now on to the Diabetes and Glucose control  My A1C at the doctors appointment was 12.5  now for a diabetic they like it to be around 6.5 to 7.  So yea its not good.  The doctor increased my Lantus from 50 to 80 units (40 units BID) and my Humologue from 14 to 18 units TID.  I also take 1000 mgs of Metformin BID.  Whew!!!!  I need to get off some of that.  See the thing is if i were to lose the weight i would probably be able to get off most or all my insulin.  So that is my long term goal.  Lose 67 pounds, keep it off and dump some of those pesky and expensive medications.  Now the problem is I start out all gung ho and then i start to taper off and then take the easy road and quit.  Hence the blog because I'm hoping if i do this it will help serve as a motivator and also I'm hoping there will be people out there that will serve as my diet police and monitor me and get on me when they see me start to slack and to offer encouragement when i succeed.  The bottom line is I have to show some progress when i go back to see the doctor in March.  Now for some stats that will help me measure my progress:  

     Current Weight:  262.2

     Chest:  49"

     Waist:  50"

     Hips:  44.5"

     Neck:  18.5"

     Thigh:  Right:  25.5"  Left:  25"

Weight will be checked weekly on Sunday and Measurements will be done Monthly.  So there ya have it.  I've tried all this before lets hope this time like smoking is the time.  The stakes are a little higher this go round.  Wish me Luck

Dr visit!!!!!!

Well went to the Dr. and it was pretty much what i expected.  He was not very happy, however with some gratuitous begging he did fill out the form to get my license back.  YEA!!!!  However the bad news was my A1C was 12.6.  Normal for a diabetic is around 6.  YIKES.   So here is the plan as outlined be him.  I have to record everything i eat, take my glucose levels more daily and record those, record daily blood pressure and exercise 1 hour daily.  This is hard for me.  I start out with gang busters and then i get tired of writing and entering all that stuff and i quit.  And motivating me to exercise well that's another story.   Anyway he wants to see results by my next visit so I don't really have a choice.  He upped my Lantus to 80 unis daily, which means now i have to give myself 2 injections instead of 1.  So I have my work cut out for me and at this time of  year.  I go back in three months and he wants to see results.  In my next blog i will post all my stats

TAKE 2

As i said in one of my earlier posts i have a tendency to fall off the wagon.  Well once again it has happened.  I am so weak.  I just cant to this on my own.  I definitely need some help.  A sponsor as it were.  Any volunteers.  I need to be held accountable.  I looked at a pic taken of me last night and i cried inside.  I looked awful.  I was so ashamed of myself.  Im so tired of being dependent on medications to be somewhat healthy.  My problem is i have a food addiction i was chatting with someone this morning and i said it out loud.  Im addicted to food.  Its my feel good.  I see food and i eat regardless if I'm hungry or not, and i will eat if I'm hungry or not.  I have been diagnosed with clinical depression and my go to, my confidant is food.  It makes me feel good.  Makes me feel better.  I am an insulin dependent diabetic and i need for my health to get rid of this weight and become a more healthy eater or my life will end sooner than i want it to.  this is something i really want to do and i start out with gang busters but after awhile i get tired of logging everything i eat, and exercise, every calorie that enters my mouth etc.  I know its what i have to do but alas i am weak.  So I'm asking for someone's help anyone who would like to help me out.  My plans are as before to blog daily just to talk it out and hopefully to someone that will listen and offer the support I need.  Well that is enough for today.  

Finally Friday

Well I'll  tell ya i'd be lying if i didn't say that I'm glad this week has come to an end.  Not that i have any major plans just ready for the weekend.  I have done great with staying within my calorie count.  I have noticed that i haven't quite been meeting my total exercise goal.  I have been walking 30 minutes a day every day, but that makes me fall a little short, so I'm gonna have to increase my routine.  Tonight   was a weak night for me i was really craving some of my favorite things like fried chicken i looked them up in the data base and about died when i saw the nutritional information so i was strong and didn't have it.  I did almost say the heck with it and eat it.  Yes today was a  hard day people all around me were eating things i wanted to eat, things that would taste so good but be ohhhh so bad.  So there were many tests put out their today and i feel pretty good about passing them, another day down and a new one ahead.  Thanks for reading and I'll see you on the lighter side.

Slacker

Okay so i am a slacker.  Its been a few days since i posted and I'm ashamed, but i figured after the rant i went on i needed to take a step back and take a look.  Yes i was very disappointed but it  time to use that disappointment to my advantage.  I am happy to report that i did  jump that hurdle and have not thrown in the towel.  I am moving on.  This is gonna take time i realize that.  I am doing  some things to help move me in the right direction.  I'm increasing my water intake.  I'm purchasing some kettle weight so i can add resistance training to my exercise program, and increasing my walking to an hour daily.  There is one thing that I am having a problem with and that is the feeling of being hungry between meals.  I am eating my meals and a snack between and i still get hungry.  Hoping the increased water will help with that but who knows.   Overall i do feel better,  I am sleeping better and waking up more refreshed which is  nice.  I go see the doctor on the 21 I'm not very excited about this.  My blood sugars haven't been what they should be or where id like them to be  yet.  This may be due to the change in medications don't really know.  This will definitely be discussed.  I'm also considering asking him to refer  me back to Dr. H.  to handle my diabetes.  I did really great when i was with her the last time and I think this is the direction i need to go.  Well weigh in is a few days away so hopefully i will have something good to report.  Thanks for reading and I'll see you on the lighter side.