TAKE 2

As i said in one of my earlier posts i have a tendency to fall off the wagon.  Well once again it has happened.  I am so weak.  I just cant to this on my own.  I definitely need some help.  A sponsor as it were.  Any volunteers.  I need to be held accountable.  I looked at a pic taken of me last night and i cried inside.  I looked awful.  I was so ashamed of myself.  Im so tired of being dependent on medications to be somewhat healthy.  My problem is i have a food addiction i was chatting with someone this morning and i said it out loud.  Im addicted to food.  Its my feel good.  I see food and i eat regardless if I'm hungry or not, and i will eat if I'm hungry or not.  I have been diagnosed with clinical depression and my go to, my confidant is food.  It makes me feel good.  Makes me feel better.  I am an insulin dependent diabetic and i need for my health to get rid of this weight and become a more healthy eater or my life will end sooner than i want it to.  this is something i really want to do and i start out with gang busters but after awhile i get tired of logging everything i eat, and exercise, every calorie that enters my mouth etc.  I know its what i have to do but alas i am weak.  So I'm asking for someone's help anyone who would like to help me out.  My plans are as before to blog daily just to talk it out and hopefully to someone that will listen and offer the support I need.  Well that is enough for today.